Growing up I had serious health challenges and weight challenges, on both extremes. At a young age I started weight watchers and many different fasts and diets. It was all an attempt to lose weight.
I lost weight (too much) and was hospitalized. I didn’t realize that my health issues went much deeper then what I was eating and doing.
I had an illness… I was battling depression.
The above picture is of me taking my senior photos. What you DON’T see is just 2 months before, I nearly died in the hospital as a result of my anorexic disorder.
Although I didn’t know it at the time, I just kept fighting the outer works instead of the inner works. I just kept fixing symptoms instead of the root of the problem. In my case there were many roots but this one was substantially larger than the others. I needed to shift my beliefs and views about health.
To really make a change, I had to ask myself:
*Why am I craving these unhealthy foods?
*What triggers my binge eating?
*What makes me starve myself?
*What is making me so tired I don’t even want to be outside?
The toughest question of all however, was learning to be okay with small beginnings.
Small beginnings it’s not something I’m fond of. Actually, I despised it. But I’m learning to love the process, instead of just enduring day by day.
Enjoy the process!
It CAN be done!🤗
Because of my challenges with small beginnings I drove myself straight into a mess by wanting results immediately. This, in turn, led to an eating disorder. I wasn’t satisfied the large amount of time and commitment it took to be healthy. The shortcuts I took (starvation) made me worse off. I didn’t realize it wasn’t a temporary thing but a life style change to become healthy.
I starved myself and became very sick due to the illusion of control I was chasing in high school.
Shifting my thought process led to a road of recovery in and of itself. I will talk about this in more depth in future blogs. But the point is.. it’s not just the food. Take a look emotionally at what’s going on. Remove anything that isn’t good for you and make yourself a priority. Really, you will be much more of a blessing to yourself and others by doing so.
You’re worth it!