Struggles Are Usually Deeper…

Hello Everyone!

Growing up I had serious health challenges and weight challenges, on both extremes. At a young age I started weight watchers and many different fasts and diets. It was all an attempt to lose weight.

I lost weight (too much) and was hospitalized. I didn’t realize that my health issues went much deeper then what I was eating and doing.
I had an illness… I was battling depression.

The above picture is of me taking my senior photos.  What you DON’T see is just 2 months before, I nearly died in the hospital as a result of my anorexic disorder.

Although I didn’t know it at the time, I just kept fighting the outer works instead of the inner works. I just kept fixing symptoms instead of the root of the problem. In my case there were many roots but this one was substantially larger than the others. I needed to shift my beliefs and views about health.

To really make a change, I had to ask myself:

*Why am I craving these unhealthy foods?
*What triggers my binge eating?
*What makes me starve myself?
*What is making me so tired I don’t even want to be outside?

The toughest question of all however, was learning to be okay with small beginnings.

Small beginnings it’s not something I’m fond of. Actually, I despised it. But I’m learning to love the process, instead of just enduring day by day.

Yes!

Enjoy the process!

It CAN be done!🤗

Because of my challenges with small beginnings I drove myself straight into a mess by wanting results immediately. This, in turn, led to an eating disorder. I wasn’t satisfied the large amount of time and commitment it took to be healthy. The shortcuts I took (starvation) made me worse off. I didn’t realize it wasn’t a temporary thing but a life style change to become healthy.
I starved myself and became very sick due to the illusion of control I was chasing in high school.

Shifting my thought process led to a road of recovery in and of itself. I will talk about this in more depth in future blogs. But the point is.. it’s not just the food. Take a look emotionally at what’s going on. Remove anything that isn’t good for you and make yourself a priority. Really, you will be much more of a blessing to yourself and others by doing so.

You’re worth it! 

Love,

Audrey

 

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8 thoughts on “Struggles Are Usually Deeper…

  1. susan e graham June 14, 2018 — 3:51 am

    Just wanted to let you know that you will be in my prayers as you go through this journey. Thank you for sharing your personal truths to help others. Love you much, Audrey and here’s to a very successful journey! I know God is first in your life and He will guide you every step of the way!

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    1. Thanks Sue, for the prayers and encouragement. Love you!

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  2. Sweet Audry, I am beyond proud of the woman you’ve become! You are a blessing to so many and can’t wait to see your journey as a mother. ❤❤

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    1. Thank you Shelly!! I’m coming up on 30 weeks! Not to far away! It’s crazy for me to think about but I’m so excited!

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  3. Audie,
    I love your story! Can’t wait to read more 🙂

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    1. Krista, your encouragement has been so helpful for me. Love you!

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  4. What an amazing story Audrey! Thank you for sharing, I look forward to follow you thru your journey. I’m so excited for your blog! Xoxo

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